Heart Preparation...

I had no peace when the school starts last week as i prepared for the retreat games, start to move into TTC hostel, unpacking and cleaning my room. Setting new students as a new level of students are formed, helping them to settle into the college. Working on planning schedule for the cluster. For me, once i settle in, I myself is also at fault, for I took time to catch up with people in the hostel, especially international students.

heart preparation! A question that i asked myself whether am i well-prepared for the semester, and more important, the year ahead! was thinking hard, praying hard, why is my heart unsettled for the coming year?!

What is going through my heart? I got all my clothes, my essential things all ready for the class to start, got my books in advance, got not much problem staying in college, got things that keeps me occupy despite of nothing much to prepared. All set for the coming year! But my heart still got some reservations coming into the new year.

I went to meet my church mates over the weekend, meeting so many people, yet i have not spend time meeting the most important person in my life... i have prepared everything for the studies, but i have not prepare my heart...

Since last week till this week, i have been thinking and praying, thinking about the life of Nehemiah, as i slowly chew on the book. Some ideas came to my mind and settle my heart as i pen down some thoughts for my coming year...

1. Perseverance in obeying God
2. Presence of God through praying
   
3. Praise God in all situation
4. Principle strengthen through the dwelling in the word of God
5. People oriented ministry
   

Pray for me as i start the new year with the Lord...

1. Thank God for his grace for last semester results, i did better than my 1st semester!
2. Pray for my mum, that her heart would be open to the Lord, as i intentionally want to bring her to church on Sundays, pray for a Chinese church near my place! =). We have been talking about life, death, heaven, hell, Christianity, grace and faith for the past month!
   
3. Pray for my heart as stated above...=).
   

Surrender...

Surrender, what a word! it is never easy to surrender to know something that you love greatly, but you have to surrender it to the Lord. Was reading a book titled, "Absolute surrender" by Andrew Murray.

if surrendering were an easy thing to do, then when Christ surrendered himself to God the Father, he had to surrender his right to his father, to die on the cross, it was the ultimate test for our Lord Jesus Christ! It was also the test of Christ's love towards his father! One would love, learnt to surrender his rights!

the test of one's love is to his willing first to surrender. secondly, one will gives off his all to the Lord. and finally, trusting in the faithfulness of God that God knows the best for our lives.

with this, i have learnt to surrender my rights in exchange of your prefect will to be done in my life. i know it is definitely and very difficult process, it will pain my heart to learn to surrender, but i am not willing, O Lord, would you help me to be willing.

Help me in my unbelief, knowing that you have the final authority in my life, but not willing to put my faith in your steadfast love! Teach me to constantly trust in You and You alone! Not to believe that i am in control. Teach me to surrender, O Lord!

You are my Lord, let my heart and mind be totally Yours, this is what i prayed...