One life will soon past, but only what's done for Christ will last...

"One man's death inspire another to live."

Here I am, looking at my father for the last time in Singapore Casket. This is the very moment, reality sunk in right into my heart and mind as though it is in the deep blue sea. My heart is crying out loud, but there are only tears coming down from my cheek without any sound, for I fear that it would drive my family into tears uncontrollably.

Walking down to the car, where we walk a distance before taking the bus to Mandai, I spend a great time of thinking and reflecting, what my dad meant to me. I knew him incomplete, and how this incompleteness leave my heart wanting to yearn more and more time with him. I wish I could had spend more time with him, I wish I could do this, I wish I could do that. For a while, "I wish" list began to be so long, that I began to question myself, Why would you wish so many things, while you have all eternity to worship God together with your dad, will it not be the greatest thing that happen?

Surrendering was never easy, it is a great struggle for me, to sing the song, "Amazing Grace" for the last time before he was pushed into the furnace of fire. What greatness of grace and mercy that man could come before the Lord. What irrestible grace, what amazing love, what wonderful mercy, what perfect King and Creator of the earth! What God! Yet there is another part of me, surrendering...surrendering my father to God, if there is any phrase would describe it, it would be, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" I believe it is same pain when Jesus Christ at his last breath on the cross, he who bears the sins of man, yet being obedient to God the Father, what obedience and humbleness of Christ. Yet he need to feel the pain of not being with God the Father for that moment. The pain, the anguish, the Savior of the world, felt in sharp pain, this is my heart cry of pain.

Therefore, does God the Father know the pain of all humanity - especially when our loved one move on, He knows and understand. Is Christianity therefore relevant? Absolutely yes in this pluralism world - where everything has lost its center of truth.

One man's death inspire another to live. The night when man returns to ashes, I went out and reflect. Thinking the meaning of life, the value of a man's life, the quality of a man's life, and at the same time, thinking and reflecting what 2 Timothy 4:7, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith." This is what I have chosen for his inscription. Guess it is not so much for my dad, but it is more for me I suppose when I choose this verse.

A reminder to me, to preserve in all hardships, all of man's struggles and trials given by the Lord Jesus Christ. Looking at my dad's life, to hear that he was a pastor in younger days blow my mind away! WHAT! I could not believe it! No way! I was in denial when two pastors from the AOG came and told me, this truth was confirmed by my mum and elder brother. All of them knew, but I was totally in shocked for I did not know the truth! A reminder, a verse, a calling verse i suppose, a verse that challenge my mindset of life, fight, race and faith.

A commitment, a calling, a life surrender to his Kingship, his Lordship, his Sovereignty will through this challenging words of Paul.

One life will soon past, but only what's done for Christ will last...